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Saturday, February 17th, 2007
3:43 pm	Update...probably last Okay so I basically gave up on LJ. I only go on to see Heychris (yeah yeah I'm a lurker). But I thought i might kinda update about my life since I dont really talk to much of you anymore. I got a boyfriend named Charles, hes okay, I'm currently trying to train him like a puppy about how to be romantic and shit... he didnt even get me a birthday gift. big let down. but altogether real good guy, hes just been messing up lately. I'm back to being friends with Danielle. we werent for a while cause we both liked charles and he just happened to like me back. I'm just glad me and her are close again, shes a big sweetheart. I dont have braces anymore. I've lost all the weight I gained from being a lazy boardie last year. And kinda more. I've always been the underweight girl and I'm just glad to be back to my pants size. I already got a secure place in LA right after I grad high school to live in and study makeup more. I'm gonna be rooming with paris hiltons friend/co-partier/ford model in a huge mansion because my mom grew to be friends with the girl's mom. I have a bright future ahead. One day youll hear about me in "faboulous life of..." I'll be the makeup artist that charges $400 dollars an eye to do make up on celebs. yup. I'm stoked BIG TIME. =]]] I have a life now with tons of good-hearted friends. I'm a very happy person. No really. I'm never without a smile. and I always sing to myself. I'm supper friendly and I'm no longer depressed or anything. Sorry I havent been able to contact really but its just cause I've become really busy. My life has been diverting from teh computer and I think thats okay. To tell you the truth this would actually be alot easier if it wasnt for Mallory. I miss her and never get to tlak to her and I love her. Life Long Commitment. But I'm still on AIM on a regular. IIIIJaimeIIII is where you can still reach me. goodbye LJ Current Mood: content Current Music: "soft" playlist on my ipod while cleaning my room. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 13th, 2007
3:30 pm	Update to my life Okay. Boyfriend = good. barely get to see him cause of his work, and me being grounded for 50% of the time we dated. no joke. 50%. Tonight were hanging though for the first time all week (besides school) Friends = eeeh. not so good. Lost Dani as a friend and Kristens going down the drain. I'm kinda losing friends faster than making em at this moment. Drama = the most this year. on a scale of 1-10 my lifes at a 5.6 - 7.1 depending on the day. (yes the decimals are nessacary) Oh yeah and btw... My birthdays in a week. get on that. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 17th, 2006
6:07 pm	Just to let you know... were going out. =] Current Mood: tired Current Music: death cab (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 11th, 2006
7:51 pm	Up on cloud nine. Yup =] =] =] =] =]=] =] =] =] =] =]= ]=]... annnnnnnd yeah. No forreal I have been a smiling mess allllll day today. =]. no really i try to hide it but i have the bigggest fucking grin that I cant wipe off my face because of last night... *rewind* K, theres this kid named Charles, seriously greatest guy I have ever met in my entire life. Hes the nicest and funniest and sweetest (and fucking hottest...no really ask anyone...and if you dont believe me... www.myspace.com/unrealkrew ) K. well I've never had a guy treat me good,...in my entire life (ohhh but thats a whole lj sob story that i dont want to get into) He opens ALL doors EVERYTIME, makes sure I am walking besides him or in front of him AT ALL TIMES, opens my car door EVERYTIME. and well, do i really have to say it? i like him ...and he likes me. and we flirt 24/7 to the point it that its almost too much. BUUUUUT heres the catch 22 - He NEVER makes a move. I mean we hung out all the time. I was starting to get bored and loose intrest actually untill yesterday... *fastforward.stop. play* I went snowboarding yesterday for the first time all year with Charles and his two friends Steve and Carl. Well we were hanging out and charles helped me out cause I suck at snowboarding...majorly. and charles had to use the bathroom at one point leaving me to sit next to Steve on the chair lift. Heres the convo- Steve- "So you like charles huh?" Me-"haha..." Steve- "No forreal... He deffiently likes you." Me- "hah yeah" then we were talking some more about other stuff cause i changed the subject. I didnt want me and charles to go the 3rd grade route and have a friend tell eachother. I raced to charles to joke around and tell him about me and Steves convo but Steve and Charles was like "Hey we gotta grab something Ill meet you in a sec!" I was like "SHIT! uuuuugh" Well I was late and told charles after steve did. you could tell charles already knew about it, but he had a big smile on his face - as i told him as if he didnt know. Well snowboarding was about to end and I let the boys go down the hill for one more run by themselves cause i was too sore. Charles calls me from his cell... Charles-"Hey do you see the sunset?" ((we were talking about how much i love the skies and sunsets on one trip on the chair lift)) Me- "uhhh...yeah! Oh but I cant really see it. a bunch of trees are in the way!" Charles- "Oh I'll take a picture of it and bring it down to you" THat was the nicest thing a guy has ever done for me. No really, Hes hanging with the bros for the first time all day without the chick tagging along and being a pain cause she keeps falling and messing up her bindings, yet hes still took the time out for me to do that. =]]]]]]] annnnnnd yeah. -this is where it all starts- Well snowboarding ended and Me and charles go back to my house to make my sick friend brownies. We baked the brownies and watched tv when they were done. Then he gave me a back massage massage for an hour straight. OMFG best thing i have ever felt in my life. no seriously. Oh and he kept being cheap and going underneath my pants to rub my ass...haha yeah. On accident he tickled me and i shot up and i saw his face was all blushed. haha. Then we dropped off the brownies at kristens(my sick friend) we head back to my house at 10. my mom said that charles had to leave at 11 and went to bed. He went back to giving me a massage. Then it was 10:50 and my mom wakes up and says we got 10 minutes then goes back to bed and forgets about us for the time-being. So I gave him a male-manicure cause we learned them in cos. Well the lotion was really cheap crap and was slimy and i had to rub his hand for at least a good hour to work it in. but it worked to our advantage cause we were like rubbing eachothers hand and sitting close under a blanket with our legs intertwined. then he started to rub my back (and such) as i was rubbing his hands. but STILL he did not kiss me. we had our faces so close the entire time too. i had my head resting on his shoulder or he would rest his chin on my shoulder. we locked eyes a thousand times but he still didnt kiss me. I was just thinking 'Oh boy, hes not gonna do it'. Then my mom gets up a third time and yells at me cause it was 12:40 (hahah) and makes him leave. I walked him out to his car and we were just standing there as he was holding me close to him facing him (like we were about to kiss) cause i was shivering and shaking my teeth. we just were like that for like 10 minutes talking. eventually i said "well i should get back inside before we get yelled at again" but ended up saying it like 3 times. Eventually im not sure when or what was being said but he kissed me and we kissed for like 3 seconds and I interruptted (being the girl that likes to keep the fish on the line) and says "heh... I should go" hes like "Hey your not shaking anymore" and i was like "hah...you do that to me." and we both laughed and I said bye and started to leave but he had a hold on my hand and so I went back and gave him another kiss. =] =]]]]]]] =]=] I couldnt go to bed all night. I even woke up at 430 on accident and couldnt go back to bed cause all I could think about was him! (haha oh god) So i didnt get any sleep (2 hours) uuuugh but i was worth it! Im just soooo happy. Oh and he just called me while i was writing this...haha. and one final one =]]]]] (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 16th, 2006
11:20 pm	Some facts - I am the WORST procrastiator in the entire world. Infact I'm supposed to be working on an essay right now thats due tommarow that we have known about for the past 3 months and I havent even started. - I want to be 23 all my life. Think about it: Shacking with your best friend, going out all weekend, living in a crappy apartment, being broker than shit. Oh god I cannot wait. -I have to hit the snooze button a total of at least 5 times or it is almost impossible to get out of bed. - I feel asleep in my chair as I was writing this. - I HATE seeing distant family like cousins and aunts. I usually dont go all together and havent seen anyone on my dads side in 3 years when they meet up 3 times a year. ps. i set up a new myspace just for u guys cause...well long story. www.myspace.com/fuckboardies Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: hellogoodbye (Comment on this)
Monday, October 30th, 2006
7:50 pm	Soooooooo... Since I usually just reply with a "good" or "wonderful" when you ask me how i am I thought I would explain here. I am happier than ever. I have the best friends(especailly when you compare them to my last set of friends) I'm starting to make friends with a bunch of cute boys (=]]) I love my new house. I just love life. Really I wouldnt trade anything that has happened to me for the world. I grew up in a pretty shitty surroundings. But in retrospect it made me so much stronger. It makes me look at life peacefully and say "I'm gonna milk you for all you got" Because you cant have pleasure with out pain. Even if I had a shitty day. I still have a good life. And I'm glad that I'm finally relizing that. [btw www.myspace.com/luckdoesntcomemyway <add it] Current Mood: calm Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
1:33 pm	Whore Hey I made a myspace just for my friends that I met on the boards. www.myspace.com/luckdoesntcomemyway everyone thats my friend on here. add me. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 13th, 2006
2:25 pm	The life I had but never used. Alot of things have been going on. Each morning I wake up and hand feed the wild swans on my lake. They truely are the most beautiful creatures ever. Its funny how you promise yourself that you'll be strong but it only work for just a short while because something so simple shoves it all away. What do you do after that? I want to stop "surviving" and start living. Current Music: The hush sound (Comment on this)
Monday, June 26th, 2006
6:40 pm	My weekend consisted of... . -Spending the weekend at my new house and moved more shit. -Playing tennis -Getting burned again (6th time this year. Eeeek!) -Feeding wild swans every morning on my dock. Ahhhh, I'm going to love this house. -Getting the ski boat in and tested it out on for a tube ride. -Learning that at the new house the vent from my parents room heads straight to my room. You want to guess what I heard twice in one day?! =| DX. ...I think i'm scarred. -Learn that my dad has a myspace. If you knew him you would see why this is probably the funniest piece of news I've heard all week. -Planned a trip to St. Louis to hang with my brother. -Getting my car in the shop. You know what that means? license. XD!! -Missing out on Tara. huge DX. Now tell me about your weekend. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Boys Night Out (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
7:11 pm	I have 4 different burn -not tan- lines. I'm sick of writing things no one will ever read. And i'm sick of Dreaming all the time about something that may never come true. I'm sick of not talking to my father. I'm sick of sitting at home. I'm sick of this place. With each breathe I feel as though I'm getting consumed by it. I'm sick of being passive-agressive with love. I'm sick of myself. alot. I'm sick of being boring. I'm sick of everything and everyone. I am seriously probably the most confused little girl ever. Current Music: Me Vs. Maradona Vs. Elvis - brand new (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
1:12 pm	Something has got to change or there WILL be nothing left to change I woke up at 3am to (finally) finish my research paper. I must say I'm kinda tired. So I found out that hawtie boy isnt worth it so no need to post comments and give me advice about it or anything. Oh wait... no one did. [-Excuse me while I whine-] I feel really good-doing. I have this friend who is probably the most beautiful person on the inside that I have ever met. She works 24/7 and that gives her just enough money to be broke. She was talking about how she really wants an ipod and that shes gonna save up for one. And I remembered my brother gave me a mp3 player for xmas (but I already had an ipod so i was just gonna take that back and get the money) I lied and said I lost the receipt. It felt good to give it to her. What can i say, I'm like the next mother teressa. Current Mood: tired Current Music: welcome to my record-hellogoodbye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
11:54 pm	He whispers he loves her but shes probably only looking for sss... Good and Bad news lately [yay cause we all dispise the +/- lists] +Moved most of furniture to new room. +Met some neighbors -Next door girl acting like she was better because she had Holister stamped across her boobs +not letting that get to me. And in the end she started to be nice again and even say "you know your pretty cool. we should hang out next time your out here" - still procrastinating on my research paper. -exams tommarow + wednesday's the last day and all half days this week. +getting a job -its babysiting cats =\ +/- still holding on to that momment wear me and hawt scene kid locked eyes for at least 6 seconds. count it. its long for walking down the hallway. - not seeing him since then -getting stalker calls from Corey all weekend. *rolls eyes* +seeing my brother Cory soon [different cory] - imagining my dads face when he sees the "for sale" sign infront of my house. Since we havent talked in like 5 months. +brand new -Jeremy being a butt face and that were not friends anymore. +/- mom gone in Vegas. I hate her when shes around but when she leaves I actually miss her. hmm. weird. +running 2 miles today. - finding out I'm gonna get a personal jetski for the house. - missing graduation. + everyone yelling at me over my choice of vegetarianism. For some reason I find this a +. I dont know If I'm gonna stay in the same school or go to the one out by my new house. I'm seriously debating. Does anyone actually read this thing? Probably not. Oh well. I just use it to take up time... that I dont have anymore. if that makes since. I decided that I'm not gonna fake anything anymore. If I dont feel the need to smile or laugh at a joke then I wont. I'm gonna be me. Oh the joys of growing up.... Current Mood: tired Current Music: Brand New (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 9th, 2006
12:44 am	BOY PROBLEMS. HELP! please. I have been listening to "Hey there Delilah" on repeat allll day. Its just so simple. so delicate. Like just by listening to it you can break a the melody in half. I have had this spell against guys for a long time, like 3 years. Now I've finally fallen for one and I find out hes taken. by a friend...Well one of those friends that you talk and say hey in the hallway but dont talk out of school. His Name is Cody. [boy that dressed preppy that one day Tara] Hes the only hot scene kid left at my school since the seniors left. Hes in the "clique" of friends that everyone in there literally loves me. I worked for it. I really had plans for this to work out. Yet I havent actually talked more than 3 sentences to him. Its like I was planting all the right seeds and just about to put water in the ground when I find this out. In a way its good news: Shes [not to be mean] really awkward looking. I dont know how to explain it; just how her body is built. Shes completely ghetto and talks with the twang and about her dream of esclades. The only guys she talks about are ghetto G wannabe rappers - take in mind shes white. Shes so dumb that its annoying and shes nothing special about her to kind of put it bluntly. They are soo different. I really think hes just doing it out of lonliness. So when I first heard her talk about him I wanted to jump up and down. But then the bad news hit me... Bad News: Hes taken by her. Ive never screwed a girl over for a guy and I dont think I want to start. But....... Ajldjafdja;ldfjin! OH OH OH! AND today in the hallway before I got the news, I came out of a door that he was walking kinda of towards and we both looked at each other for an extended kind of stare without looking away. It was a moment I was waiting for I wanted to jump in the air. The seed was sprotting. And I know he would leave her in a heartbeat for me, not to sound mean, just cause I hear alot about that kid. Plus I'm going to a new school and moving [only 10 minutes away] and I dont want to seem like the new girl that is a loser and cant get a bf. [I'm NOT using him for that. That's just my little alarm clock going off in my head] I wont. I dont think so. I wont. I dont know. Give me advice. please. I really need it. I dont know what to do. I'm currently up at 1am still procrastating over a paper. I dont sleep so I dont really mind. Current Mood: worried/confused/restless Current Music: Hey There Deliluh- Plain White T's (Comment on this)
Monday, June 5th, 2006
8:57 pm	Attention Whore much? I'M FUCKING MOVING!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! AWAY FROM EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO LEAVE FOR 4 YEARS. AND TO TOP IT OFF TO MY DREAM HOME! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO. you know whats funny is that i was just thinking about this earlier today. How I would chop off my left pinky toe to be able to move. Now I get to do it and keep the toe!!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 21st, 2006
3:45 pm	My hips dont lie and I'm starting to feel you boy. I have 16 more days of school left. eeeeeeek! But on the same note: Yay! I have so much on my plate right now. Me and Jeremy have been hanging out a lot lately. Its crazy how much we have in common. So much stuff has happened since I last updated. Kinda too far behind to tell it all. When I have time I will. Current Mood: tired Current Music: circles- paramore (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 13th, 2006
11:04 am	I want to pierce something again. I don't really have anything special to say. I'm just bored and waiting to see what plans fall through today. Someone please show me an awesome band that I haven't heard of. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Switch between FFTL, 30 seconds to mars, and Circa Survive (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
9:06 pm	Things me and Mallory distinguished today: - I officially lose at myspace - you sneeze about 50 times during the time you pierce your nose (not even exaggerating) -I'm a fat ass because I'm too tired to get up to go to bed. So I'm waiting for Mallory to come carry me 20 feet to my bed. -Don't forget about the food your making. Or the house will smoke up and the fire alarm will go off. - Mallory dumped Frank Iero for Matt Good. Shes not even divorced yet and she remarried last night. - When moms ask what you think of their brand new dress. Lie. Even though the top does look like some hippie walmart piece. Or they'll yell all day about how mean you are - (Mal didn't have to do with this one) There is a time limit on 'fashionably late' Especially when you show up to a party and everyone is already passed out except for the kid that you hate and then he starts to hit on you. Ugh don't you hate when parents don't go to bed until 3. Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: FFTL with Mal-Pal. ah shes amazing. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 6th, 2006
11:41 am	Yay! All my clothes have officially arrived. And my feet officially turned purple yesterday because of a mix up with the shoes. I must've ordered a size 6 instead of 8 on one of them but didn't realize that until I took off the tags. Therefore making me think 'beauty is pain' so I wore them in all their glory... purple toes and all. Ugh. And then with the other ones I ordered an 8 mens. I'm officially the worst online shopper. But other than that everything is good about it. My mom came home from LA yesterday and said that I look like I've lost weight. ?? well I did do a bunch of working out and running. She said she saw it in my face. What a weird place huh? Current Mood: bored Current Music: 30 seconds to mars (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 1st, 2006
4:21 pm	So saturday night I had plans to demolish some more mailboxes and hang with some friends but I cancelled them so I could babysit my friend, Ashley's, little brother cause she couldn't take off work. And after wards we would hang. Man, I'm such a good friend. But by the time she got home I fell asleep on the couch. She woke me up to say that there are some people waiting in her driveway and shes gonna go smoke some weed and that she'll talk to me later. Dude wtf?! seriously. Pssh, nice to know that friends will always be there for you. Oh and how shitty is it that only 2 of my 4 orders of clothes have came in. Its been over a week now. But good news: We're gonna sell our lake house and buy a house out in LA for my moms business (shes a producer/agent/writer) But mostly for my college years. Kickass. I'm happy. about that. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Motion city- autographs and apologies (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 28th, 2006
11:46 pm	Watching fat-fucks on Pants-off Dance-off. I'm alone on a Friday night. Ugh. And whats worse is I Can't Sleep but there's nothing to do. I want my clothes to come in. And I wish my parents didn't write down the miles on my car before they left for LA. Oh well, there's still lots of freedom that comes along with that sentence.... Current Mood: insomnatic (spelling?) (Comment on this)